a healing.

a healing can only begin once the recognition that something is broken occurs.  the crack is longer and finer than you ever could've imagined, and you try to cover it up with pretty fake smiles and long batting eyelashes.  that glue isn't routed in the truth, therefore will only hold for as long as you can keep up the act.  unfortunately, most people don't care enough to know the real you, the stuff that makes you crazy, or laugh, or love.  but when you find someone who does they have the power to destroy you.  they hold a pin in their tongue, and as they speak it begins to unknowingly poke at our safe, contained bubble.  eventually, you open up enough and their words become dangerously more potent, things you had stored away in the darkness of your memories begins to creep forward.  vivid flashbacks.  flooding emotions.  a re-wiring begins in the brain, and a complete sense of being out of control stings anxiety through the body.  tears begin to glide down your cheek, and soon a consistent, calm stream has made a home there.  in those moments when you are brought to face your fears, to heal, you look to the sky and scream out with graciousness.  you are not alone.  you never have been.  you realize, in that moment, that you never would've made it out alive without His love.  and it's in that moment, between sharp breaths and wild weeping a warmth surrounds your heart reminding you it's not over.  it's just the beginning of an even brighter light to shine from within.  the crack begins to have support, and the proper work is done to create a foundation that can never be broken again.